"Love Has Come For Me"
Man, did those lyrics speak to me. I tend, and by tend I mean almost always try, to control different aspects of my life. When things will happen, how they will happen. I try to hide behind the fact that I'm a planner, (which is a positive quality, right?!) ;) when truly, my planning often has the opposite effect of what a planned person would like- rather than feeling prepared and in control of a situation, I'll feel anxious or frustrated if the smallest detail doesn't turn out how I pictured it in my mind. (Hmm... maybe this confession was a bad idea...) But writing it out actually helps me to see how crazy I am. Because I know that God's plan is a bagillion times better than my own. Yes, a bagillion.
The beauty of it is that God created me to be this oh-so-planned-and-prepared ;) person. He knows me better than I know myself. He knows that this little gift he's given me can also get in the way of what He's trying to do in my life. That's why I love the line that says, "I'm never gonna get it all together, so, what's left to do but surrender?" This is me. I'm a planner. And it can be a great thing. But my life is the greatest when I surrender my plans to The Plans that I know are way more beautiful than what I can dream up in my own mind. ...A Jesus-Take-The-Wheel kind of epiphany, we'll call it.
It's convicting moments like
"'For I know the plans I have for you,' declares the Lord, 'plans to prosper you and not harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.'" ~Jeremiah 29:11
"There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under the heavens." ~Ecclesiastes 3:1
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge him, and he will direct your paths." ~Proverbs 3:5-6
To top off the spiritual American-Idol experience, this is what I read Friday morning in my Jesus Calling devotional:
Gotta love when God can take a TV show and create a much-needed moment like this. (...And now I'm sing Kelly Clarkson's finale song from season one in my head- figures).
If you feel so inclined to make me feel better and comment on how you too try to control the daily events of your life, I'm not stopping you. ;) I will be more than happy to pray for you too when I'm trying my best to surrender each day!
Happy Easter, friends!